PSA, mental health day

Oct. 15th, 2025 01:35 pm
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PSA: everyone please remember to do your breast self-examinations. This is absolutely a half-arsed is better than can't be arsed situation.

Earlier this year a friend was diagnosed with breast cancer. So far so good, chemo seems to have done its job, etc etc.

It made me realise I wasn't reliably doing my breast self-exams post endometrial ablation, because I no longer have a menstrual cycle to remind me. And so I've been doing them somewhat regularly, possibly more often than once a month, because more frequent is better than less, and time is a slippery concept. Also, my breasts never ceased to be lumpy post teen years, and I'm never entirely sure that I'll remember what the lumps feel like, so more frequently is better for me. I'm aware that my breasts get more tender cyclically. However, the left one became continuously sore on the outside edge and into the arm pit, so I raised it with my doctor, who sent me for mammogram and ultrasound. Which was this morning.

Surprisingly, the medicos were not concerned about the left breast. I was called back for additional imaging on the mammogram for the right breast. And then there were a lot more images taken of the right with the ultrasound, and the sonographer went and got the radiographer to declare if they wanted more done. The upshot is that I have something that wasn't there on the previous scan. They were discussing wait six months and rescan vs biopsy; I made a flippant comment about also having had a benign nodule in a lung, and one about how bright the bit on the image looked. One of those two things flipped the radiographer to 'right, biopsy, get a referral from your doctor'.

This is on the side I'm not feeling anything wrong at all. Which is why the reminder: keep checking for these things.

Also, I'm having at least a mental health half day, because the idea of reading about imaginaries of genAI is Too Much.

FUCKING CLOWN COUNTRY

Oct. 14th, 2025 09:59 pm
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*plays La Marseillaise on the kazoo*

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Oct. 13th, 2025 09:45 pm
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+ Long weekend. Had dinner with parents. Did a lot of faffing around aside from that. I feel like I didn't really do much aside from sleep and watch movies.

+ Some people invited me out to a thing, then cancelled but forgot to inform me. I didn't find out until the afternoon on the day it was going to happen, when I sent a text to check on the time (though luckily with enough notice that it wasn't a big deal). I'm still kind of annoyed about it. Like, on the one hand, I didn't really want to go to this thing anyway. On the other hand... dude, seriously? They want to reschedule, but I'm 50/50 on whether I'll decline.

+ Watched Akira Kurosawa's Dreams. Beautiful film, but very very artsy. It's an anthology of eight vignettes or "dreams", each inspired by an actual recurring dream Kurosawa had. Some are more fantastical than others. I'm glad that I took the time to watch it, but I'm also very glad that it was not my first Akira Kurosawa film - I don't think it would have been a good introduction to his work. Very recommended for Art Film enthusiasts though.

+ [Hetalia] Came across someone grumbling about the prevalence of SE/FI and the lack of other FI pairs, and on the one hand yeah I feel that, but on the other hand they were going on about how they've never seen work with other FI pairs except as a joke, and I'm like - hold on. Excuse me. Dude, you haven't been looking. Sure, there isn't a lot, but I've never seen a NO/FI or EE/FI shipper who wasn't 100% earnest and enthusiastic. There aren't a lot of fanworks out there, but there are some, and a lot of them are quite nice. Pairings other than those two are much fewer, but every so often something unexpected turns up. You just have to go looking, man. Or make your own. ...Anyway, it did remind me of a No/Fi story I've had notes for that I never did get around to writing. Maybe I'll try to write it when I'm on vacation in November. Not that I'll be sharing it with that asshole, but I do like the idea and it'd be nice to get it on paper.

What’s in my rucksack?

Oct. 13th, 2025 07:59 am
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I’m eschewing the Friday Five in favour of a meme that the FF for this week seems to have revived.

From left to right, top to bottom, here are the items in the photo.

  1. Rucksack. The brand is Herschel. It has a lot of internal pockets and carries a crazy amount of stuff, while also being pretty slim profile.
  2. Noise-cancelling over-ear headphones. I cannot live without these and have no idea how I survived many years of long commutes on public transport before I bought them.
  3. Coffee cup. Collapsible! Purchased from my favourite barista, a one-woman outfit operating out of my local train station.
  4. Toiletries bag. I didn’t empty this out. It contains lip gloss, medicine, hand sanitiser and hand lotion.
  5. Red pen. For correcting mistakes, many of which are my own.
  6. Tipex. See previous item.
  7. Laser pointer. An essential component of my job is lecturing and giving talks. There is never any guarantee that a laser pointer will be available alongside AV equipment, so I carry my own.
  8. Pen. A freebie from a workshop or a conference, usually.
  9. Multi-tool. This was a freebie from the Maui conference. It has lots of little swappable magnetic bits inside. I have only used the screwdriver bits so far.
  10. Paper clip. You never know.
  11. Notebook and pen. I go through notebooks (again, most of them are freebies) every couple of months. This is the latest in the series.
  12. HDMI-to-USB-C cable. There’s no HDMI port on my laptop.
  13. Two memory sticks. I borrowed the blue one from a colleague about two years ago and am now too embarrassed to return it. The minion is mine. He used to have trousers, but they fell down a stairwell and were lost in a basement.
  14. Lucky pinecone. Keiki gave me this when we were in California. I carry it in one of the outer side pockets.
  15. Packet of biscuits and a mango lollipop. Emergency food, which will probably be eaten by one of the children.
  16. Macbook Air. Laptop from Institution A, my primary employer. I also have an HP Windows laptop from Institution B, my other employer. I am mostly indifferent to the Mac / Windows debate, although I will say that the Macbook laptop’s trackpad is far better.
  17. Railcard. The train apps for railcards and tickets are notoriously unreliable, especially when you don’t have a good internet connection, so I still carry paper copies.
  18. Glasses case. At the moment these contain my sunglasses, which are prescription and which I sometimes wear in winter to cut the glare from headlights when I’m driving. My untinted varifocals are usually on my face.
  19. Universal adapter, USB cables, and a handful of coins. I prefer to be equipped to take advantage of charging points whenever I can, especially since I travel so much.
  20. Fan. From the Louvre, featuring the Mona Lisa. Very good for public transport.


Please link your “What’s in my bag?” posts in the comments, especially if I haven’t commented on them.

QOTD: Vincent van Gogh on learning

Oct. 12th, 2025 02:50 pm
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“I am always doing what I can't do yet in order to learn how to do it.” (Vincent van Gogh, in an 1885 letter to Anthon van Rappard)

I like this — I'm always trying to learn new things, so it makes me happy to see someone else feeling the same way.

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I just finished reading this anthology of solarpunk-themed stories, and I loved it. Most of the authors here were unknown to me, but that probably says more about me being out of touch with the current state of science fiction than the authors themselves. (Feel free to tell me in the comments which of the authors I mention I should know about [in your estimation] and which ones were unknown to you as well.)

The stories approach solarpunk from a variety of directions, examining a variety of different ideas and technologies. Some are set in a time of transition from the current world to a solarpunk world, while others are set further in the future, in a world that's more firmly solarpunk. I like that the authors aren't afraid to admit that a solarpunk world would still have problems.

Looking back over the table of contents, these are the stories that I'd most recommend, as they're the ones that seem both to have stuck with me best and to have had the most interesting ideas. - "Rules for a Civilization" by Jerri Jerreat - "Orchidaceae" by Thomas Badlan - "For the Snake of Power" by Brenda Cooper - "The Maestro of Small Things" by Francesco Verso - "Drawing the Line" by Gustavo Bondoni" - "Lizard Skin" by Lucie Lukačovičová - "The Lighthouse Keeper" by Andrew Dana Hudson

Two other stories that I enjoyed but that I rank lower because they centered on crewed space travel, which just doesn't really seem solarpunk to me were - "Have Space Bike, Will Travel" by Ingrid Garcia - "The Spider and the Stars" by D.K. Mok

Another story that I enjoyed reading but that I found myself pushing away from because of the technology used is Ken Liu's "Byzantine Empathy." I'm normally a big fan of Liu, both as a writer and as a futurist/worldbuilder, but I just can't believe that blockchain/cryptocurrency based on proof of work has any place in a solarpunk future.

This leaves you with about half a dozen other stories that just didn't really grab me strongly enough for me to want to recommend them to you but, as always, YMMV.

Before I end this longer-than-usual reaction, I'd like to take a moment to talk about the physical form of this book. It's a hardcover book produced as part of the "Beyond & Within" series from Flame Tree Press, and is produced to be pleasant to look at and to hold. It's got a foiled cover, marbled page edges, and feels comfortable to hold while reading. But there's one design choice they made that just irked me every time I looked at it: Solarpunk is one word, yet on the cover and the spine, they present it as two words, one below the other. I know that they know better — both the back cover and Verso's introduction spell it correctly — and it really bugs me that they misspell this important word, which may be unfamiliar to many readers, in the most prominent parts of the book. (Both the title page and the half-title page are based on the typography of the cover, and so also misspell the word.)

But leaving that unfortunate design choice aside, I highly recommend this book.

In lieu of a real post

Oct. 12th, 2025 09:13 pm
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today's important news is that I've cut all my hair off.

This has been planned since the beginning of 2023; with the 'when I'm obviously going grey' as the trigger point; I then waited until after the wedding. Hair at the back was long enough to repeatedly get caught in the waistband of trousers. Hair is halfway to packaged up to send to one of the wig making mobs. Thanks to [profile] chaomanor and [personal profile] maharetr for the loan of the clippers, and Youngest for a mostly even cut.

Comet says no

Oct. 12th, 2025 01:13 pm
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It's a grim, cold, foggy day. Comet is not at all interested in participating in it.

Portable power chair

Oct. 11th, 2025 09:14 pm
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There's a new power scooter out, the Golden Buzzaround Carry-On HD. The HD part is important. This is the heavy duty one, which is also first-in-class lithium ion battery scooter. But that's not what this entry is about (and the scheduled arrival date is Tuesday).

Since the scooter was backordered and not going to arrive in time for the Michigan trip, I ordered a (not too expensive for the specs) power wheelchair off Amazon. The choice was partly informed by the advertised shipping time: two days. Plenty of time for it to arrive. And then I watched the shipment crawl over what was clearly ground transport, likely because of the battery. Eventually the package arrival date got down to our departure date. Meanwhile, I was paralyzed with anxiety about the trip, and was barely able to pack. At least I was able to make checklists for when I eventually unfroze on the day of departure.

FedEx said my power chair would arrive between 1 and 3. This was inaccurate, and at some point the forecast switched to "end of day".

When it hadn't arrived by 4, we loaded into the car with my upright (unpowered) walker. At the last minute as we fled out the door, I thought our snack supply looked a little too small and grabbed a random bag to toss a few more things into. As we pulled out of the neighborhood I called the airline accessibility services line to report the change. Which took a little while, as I had to explain that no, I hadn't "changed my mind" about bringing the power wheelchair, the reason I wasn't taking the power wheelchair was because it hadn't arrived yet, so I couldn't take it. At that point I got the appropriate amount of sympathy.

Within the MINUTE I told the very nice customer service person goodbye, Alex spotted the FedEx truck.

By that point Silver and I were on I-5, but with a very nice turn off opportunity. (Silver had taken that specific route because it's a pain in the ass to get over another couple lanes that quickly and in traffic.)

So we went back, we thanked the Bastard profusely and profanely, with the double thumb-tap to the lips (both of us, simultaneously). Silver offloaded the walker and onloaded the chair while I talked to the airline accessibility department again and tried to figure out what the battery voltage was. The footrests fit into the duffel bag with the extra snacks, just as if I had planned it intentionally. I asked Silver to empty my padded tote bag, so we could use it for the battery.

We got to the airport on time for all of that.

I got the best of both worlds: chair coming with me, but since the battery wasn't charged we checked the main body of the chair at the Special Services counter and got wheelchair service through the airport. Security was less of a zoo than usual because we went through the wheelchair lane instead of the endless maze. I got pornoscanned for the first time.

That got us to the gate an hour earlier than we'd intended.

I was very glad to have the power chair with us, as it made some of the bits that would have been excessively strenuous much much better. Silver got used to lifting the thing into the back of their mom's SUV, and eventually we banged our heads on the car less often.

Coming back, it wasn't quite as easy going through security since I was still new at steering the chair and we didn't have the professional chair-pusher to finesse security. (No, not the ateva way.) We gate-checked the chair. I checked in with the two wheelchair-pushers who met us at the Seattle end of things, and assured the one who was waiting for me that I had my chair (as Silver cussed gently at the footrests).

And when we eventually got home, Yellface cussed us both out like I've never seen her cuss before. She was Peeved! That we! Had Abandoned! Her!!!!

I have since decked it out with retroreflective tape, electroluminescent wire, and a miniature disco projector meant for a bike.

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Oct. 11th, 2025 09:25 pm
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I have two skeins of Malabrigo Mechita that I have no idea what to do with. I did have something in mind when I bought them, but now I have no idea what it was. At one point I started making a scarf in a pattern I've done before, but today I changed my mind and unravelled the thing. Anyway, it's definitely enough for both a scarf and a hat, and there's no end to nice fingering-weight patterns out there, so I'm sure I'll find something nice. ...Too many options, really. Maybe I'll limit my search to my existing pattern library. (Or suggestions.)

I'm also sitting on enough worsted weight yarn to make a blanket. Maybe I could do that. Or I could make some socks with one of the random skeins I have hanging around. Or... Or most likely I will do none of the above. :Va

Today was weird. I forgot to turn off my alarm, so I woke up at 6:30 as usual. Judo was cancelled, so I could relax a little instead of rushing around. I ended up watching a movie while unravelling that scarf. ...Then I spent most of the rest of the day faffing around when I should have been doing chores, but, well, anyway.

New UK hate crime figures, *sigh*

Oct. 9th, 2025 05:24 pm
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The new hate crime figures are out, apparently disability hate crime is slightly down. Am I being cynical in assuming that's probably because some of the haters are too busy committing hate crimes against muslims and/or jews and/or anyone who doesn't look like them?

Trans hate crime is also slightly down, but I'd presume that would be people feeling even less safe to report it, rather than an actual reduction.

The figures exclude the Met, the biggest force in the country because they're busy adopting a new crime reporting tool - so give us their figures as a separate entry, don't just exclude them entirely. *headdesk*

Somewhat embarrassingly for the police/Home Office, the Office for Statistics Regulation is still insisting they include a caveat to say their data is actually pretty crap.

What comes through when considering that the figures cover the period of the Stockport-related race riots is that the figures, even if recorded as intended, are utterly incapable of recording mass events like riots. If 300 people are chanting racist slogans and throwing bricks, but the police only arrest 3 of them, then only 3 crimes would be reported. It's definitely working as intended, but is working as intended what they actually intended?

Health (good news)

Oct. 8th, 2025 08:08 pm
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My immunotherapy infusion yesterday may have been my last!! I have a scan on Monday that will probably say that. Belovedest celebrated by cracking into the Strategic Redpop Reserve. This will mean much more leeway to leave town and such.

Colonoscopy results: mostly normal, one pre (not sure how many pre-s to put here) cancerous "lesion", and all of them removed. Repeat in two years, this time with Extended Prep. (My understanding of "lesion" and the medical definition may not align entirely well.)

Started the new injectable after the colonoscopy. I can definitely feel the impact. It remains to be seen exactly what kind. One of my friends has a new injectable too; she's getting some sinus clearance from it. Of all the random effects.

After the infusion, Belovedest and I trekked up-city to pick up a package for [personal profile] alexseanchai. All Pampered Chef, and a high proportion of likely goodies vs. likely duds. There were some varying scrub brushes. The utensil/knife scrub brush looks like dentures that are actually a scrub brush, but I can see that coming in handy. There was also a quarter-sheet pan with two eighth-sheet pans. And then we trekked back down when Belovedest realized they'd left their tablet at the cancer center. Freakin' ADHD. We're on The Assassins of Thasalon in our progress through Penric.

I have a smallish makeup hobby. Part of that is sometimes going all Weird Barbie on my face with eyeliner or whatever. Tonight I've convinced myself (via iridescent green eyeliner) that some kind of moon phase forehead jewelry might really slap.
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